Today, the peonies won |
Work? Play? Accomplish something or fritter away the day? Freedom or responsibility?
My market splurge--unabashedly showy |
I don't know why I assumed these things would magically sort themselves out once I retired. I have been chewing on some of my life's more durable fiber these past days, and weeks. Now that nobody has claims on my time, I am faced with that problem of finding balance. I especially wrestle with having "want to" activities become "have to" activities.
For so long in my working life, I put things aside. I'd do them later, when I had time. Now I have time, but need to better manage it. Or manage my expectations. What I am discovering is that to be any good at some things, like writing, or photography or playing the piano and the dulcimer, it takes work and dedication. And time. If I want to get better at the piano I HAVE to practice. If I want to be a better writer, I HAVE to write. I am not immune to the disease of craving immediate gratification.
For 99% of my days, I actually look forward to my time spent at the piano and with my pen in hand. But there are some days that I want to just fritter away the time, wandering through the streets and alleys, sitting at cafes talking to strangers, or taking a nap.
I already had flowers; I needed vegetables, not peonies |
I seem to be having a run of "those days." Tuesday, I walked down to the market because I needed vegetables. I bought peonies.
There's another market tomorrow. Peonies are here for only a little while.
I wish getting my other priorities aligned were so easy.
My Christmas cactus is growing in her new pot--just like I am doing |
I liked seeing your beautiful peonies. I know what you mean by just wanting to "hang-out" and fritter your time away instead of doing mundane tasks. Marian
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